http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/ Imitations of Life Wed, 06 Aug 2008 01:25:01 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2008. Writing http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/125.html Tue, 05 Aug 2008 17:20:17 GMT At last, I think I finally figured out how to let go. Doesn't mean my heart isn't breaking tho. Some might think that I just hang on coz I know there may not be anyone else that would come and show me that I'm worth something. It's not that. And I don't owe anybody an explanation. I haven't stopped praying and I sincerely want to know that you're happy. That I never meant to be difficult. That your friendship meant alot, above anything else. http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=125 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/124.html Fri, 25 Jul 2008 17:41:15 GMT How much of my life will I spend looking... For happiness.. love.. peace.. contentment.. How many times do I have to let go before I find what's mine? How many more goodbyes.. How many more not meant for me's.. How much more regret do I have to swallow.. How much longer do I have to pretend I dont hurt as much.. How much longer do I have to pretend of a next lifetime to be waiting.. With a promise of ending the sadness I always try to hide.. There's got to be something for me.. http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=124 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/123.html Wed, 25 Jun 2008 12:48:08 GMT I don't know how to describe what I feel right now. I think I'm angry. On the verge of crying.. or screaming.. whatever. Everything just seems to be falling apart. I'm not gonna be put down. I can get through all this. Time to get down to business. No one will ever see me break down ever again. http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=123 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/122.html Wed, 18 Jun 2008 16:11:18 GMT I do not know why I'm holding on to an illussion that one day I'd look up and find you there. How could that be? You are an amazing person with your whole life ahead of you. You can do much much better. And for once in my life I fervently wish I was something else. Somebody a lot less different . But who am I kidding? I'm surprisingly having a very difficult time with this. I have walked away from people before and never had I looked back (or regretted).. So forgive me if I hold on a little bit longer. I promise this would be over as soon as I can. http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=122 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/121.html Tue, 10 Jun 2008 11:18:45 GMT People who think they're above everybody else but continously read the things I write here seem to be very ecstatic. They seem to have an idea what my ramblings mean and declare "karma" "karma" and that I deserve what I'm getting and all that. I'll have you know that you're wrong. And whatever I am going thru right now does not validate you in anyway. Not even by a long shot. Please leave me alone. http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=121 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/120.html Mon, 09 Jun 2008 15:05:57 GMT Miss the past everyday, but the past is history, nothing more. No one should ever live in them and the most we can do is make the past work for the present. Always in my prayers. http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=120 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/119.html Fri, 06 Jun 2008 15:37:20 GMT I am not about to pretend these weeks have been happy when they really weren't. There is no anger. Just sadness. http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=119 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/118.html Thu, 05 Jun 2008 17:27:33 GMT The world we live in is cruel and unforgiving. Where people can only exist in it or get out of it. For most, giving into the cruelty gives them a semblance of "owning" their lives". Of getting what they want out of life. I have to say, this world is not meant for me. I care too much. For years I have labored in putting up and maintaining walls so as not to feely anything. Not to care. No real happiness, but atleast no hurt or pain as well. I cant give up on this world though, its the only one I have. I just wish time would hurry up. Coz I've let my walls down sometime back and I've never... (more) http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=118 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/117.html Sun, 18 May 2008 22:04:07 GMT Think of Me Think of me, Think of me fondly, When we've said goodbye. Remember me once in a while Please promise me you'll try. When you find that, once again, You long to take your heart Back and be free - If you ever find a moment, Spare a thought for me... Think of all the things We've shared and seen - Don't think about the things Think Of Me lyrics on Which might have been... Think of me, Think of me waking, silent and resigned. Imagine me, trying too hard To put you from my mind. Recall those days, Look back on all those times, Think of the things we'll never do - There will... (more) http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=117 http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/archive/116.html Tue, 06 May 2008 04:57:45 GMT I know what I'm wishing for but I need to stop. Being by myself used to be so easy. Simpler. More comfortable. What has changed.. alot of things.. Things that normally grow or should I say grow apart when there is that proverbial great divide. Doesn't really matter what comes between you, it's just note worthy that something's there. It's the part where you have to accept and give up trying to keep everything the same that comes as a struggle. Like birth pains (I think). Better to give it one big push and get it over with than let it stall and give you that regular cramp. No one's to... (more) http://glorificus.blogdrive.com/comments?id=116